I LOVE PHOTOSHOP!!!

Ok so I just got photoshop! (thank you black friday!) and now i'm obsessed! The one of me with black hair was just for fun haha! Oh man I LOVE PHOTOSHOP!!

The past makes you who you are........

So many things make up who we are today. Lately I've been thinking about why I act the way I do. And it has made me realize I need to be more open about my past. I won't be telling the blog world everything. But here are somethings I've struggled with in my life.

-My skin- Growing up I always would get scars all over my legs and they would itch like no other. I would scratch them until they bled. It was horrible, I went to a doctor and he couldn't figure out what was wrong with me. So we went to a specialist and he told me that I had a skin disorder (it has a really long name that I can never remember) I got medicated lotion and it has helped so much. Not only has this effected my legs but along with this disorder, I never broke out or had any acne. Which was nice but the price I had to pay playing tennis with my legs looking like that and the pain I got. I would have much rather have delt with zits. I will have scars for the rest of my life!

-Modeling Job- In Junior High me and my friend decided to try out for a modeling job. We both got it which was really exciting. But after talking it over with my family we all decided it would be better if I didn't take the job.

these are things I didn't tell people before because I was ashamed. but i'm not anymore! I'm proud of who I am and where I've come from.

My family is not rich, we are not clean, we don't always get along, we laugh alot, and we love each more then anything else!

“What you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment. And this is the moment you can choose to make everything new. Right now.”

XOXOXOXO

This is who I am......

Lately I've been thinking a lot about the person I am. So much has been happening in my life, so much has changed my family is changing, my friends are more distant then ever, and I realized when you truly care about someone letting them go can sometimes be the only solution. I am so so grateful for the church, because with out it I would be nothing. This is who I am.....

I laugh at everything
The only people I can get mad at is my parents and brother
I'm scared of whats to come
I've been hurt a lot so it's hard for me to let new people into my life
I'm a quiet person and people may think it's because I'm stuck up but it's very much the opposite, I'm very self conscious
I can't cry, because I told myself at one point in my life that crying is a sign of weakness, but now I wish I could cry
I love to people watch and figure out why people act the way they do
I have multiple laughs
I am OCD about a lot of things
I'm a little bit of a germaphob but I'm getting better
I HATE drama and avoid it at all costs
You can push me around really easy
I daydream about 67% of the day
I love so easy
I've never had an actual enemy
I don't cut corners, I'm a very honest person
I'm very sarcastic
My face expressions show exactly how I'm feeling they are also often humorous to others
I'm very paranoid
I trust people way to easily
I'm very forgetful
I sing in the shower
I love little kid stuff
Orange is my favorite color
I can't swim
I'm always cold
I enjoy wearing extremely high heels
I bite my nails
I take long hot showers
I love taking pictures and won't admit it but love getting my picture taken
I am a wimp and scare so easy
I love eating out
I like to say Hi to strangers
I can't wait to be a mom one day
I'm addicted to diet coke and Facebook
I love getting phone calls
I hope someday a random (or not so random) guy will bring me flowers
I am a really deep sleeper
I'm a very touchy person I love holding hands, hugging, and cuddling
I hate when people wear black and brown solids together
I love babies
I wish i could relive moments
I automatically think everyone's my friend
I wish my life had a theme song, if it did it would probably be can't be tamed or whip your hair or something more classic like Dr.Love ;)
I think dirty jokes are funny
I love love love to tell stories
I meet the most random people

And that is pretty much me and my life!!!

xoxoxo

Where I've been....

I have not abandoned you readers!! life has just be super super crazy!! Between school,friends, lovers, haters, family, pets, and sleep. I've been super busy! plus my computer has decided to hate me and not upload pictures :( sad day because i have some awesome ones from this weekend and Halloween. I'll get them up here soon!!!
xoxo